lifefullyinhabited

Another chapter begins.
My mom went to her eternal home a month ago today. There are so many thoughts.
So many emotions.
Thankfully, very few regrets.
So many blessings.

I will be grieving for a long time. I have never been without my mother before. She was with me my whole life.
It is still, after one month, so impossibly hard to say good-bye to her.

There have been moments in life when I truly felt like “now I am a grown-up” or “now I am really an adult”.

This past month I have felt more like a child again, in a helpless, dependent way. I really don’t want to take on adult responsibilities for the moment.

It is so draining to do mundane things like pay bills, go to the grocery store, clean up dog vomit on the kitchen floor.

It hurts to do just about everything. And it is worse to do nothing.

Thanks for listening.